WHEN I SAID YES

And when I said “Yes” , I could literally feel the labor pain. Yes. Yes, I am going to adopt him. I am coming to take him home.
And when I reached there, the man was sitting and he was looking at me from head to toe. And in back of my head, I kept thinking that, oh my God, he is going to say she is on the wheelchair. She doesn’t deserve it. How is she going to take care of him?
And I looked at him and I said, “Do not judge me because I am on the wheel chair. But you know what he said, “I know you will be the best mother of this child. You both are lucky to have each other.”
And that day, he was two days old and today he is six.
You will be surprised to know another bigger fear that I had in me. It was facing people. I used to hide myself from people. When I was on bed for two years I used to keep the door closed. I used to pretend that I am not going to meet anyone. Tell them I am sleeping.
You know why? Because I couldn’t stand that sympathy that they had for me. They used to treat me like a patient. When I used to smile, they used to look at me and say that you are smiling, are you OK’.
I was tired of this question being asked. Are you sick? Well, a lady at the airport asked me, ‘Are you sick’. And I said, well, besides the spinal cord injury, I am fine. I guess.
But those are really cute questions. They never used to feel cute when I was on the bed.
So I used to hide myself from people knowing that, Oh my God I am not going to see that sympathy in their eyes. It’s all right. And today, I am here speaking to all these amazing people. Because I have overcome the fear.
You know when you end up being on the wheelchair, what’s the most painful thing? That’s another fear, that people on the wheelchair, or the people who are differently abled have in their hearts but they never share. I will share that with you. The lack of acceptance. People think that they will not be accepted by the people because we and the world of perfect people are imperfects.